The answer to the question 'Did I kill myself' depends on whether or not I was murdered. It's a bit of a grey area. I don't recall becoming a ghost, so I must have gone straight on, afterward.
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He'd have told me to join him, and I would. - still true!
Are you Sophie, the staff member of the Barry Grand Hotel? The one who writes "He will rise" on Captain Hatch's wall and jump out of the window after Hatch tell her "a secret"?